I probably sound like a whiny teenager but I can't sleep. Basically, everyone who has come to hate me in the past 3 years are now friends, even those who at some point didn't like each other. I guess the saying "an enemy of my enemy is my friend" is more true after all. Except, though perhaps this is naive, but I feel that I did nothing to deserve these enemies as most of them are a result of jealousy or an association with my stalker ex boyfriend or both but there are two sides to every story, possibly more, so take that as you will.
I guess I should start with the phone call that woke me up. My ex has insomnia (most of them do cuz I used to be a night owl so it was something in common) & he called me because "he couldn't sleep and needed someone to talk to." I shouldn't have picked up the phone cuz it always ends in tears but I have this stupid naive hope that everyone is good. I mentioned that I've been bored recently so he suggested that I hang out with Nat & Hope.....my FORMER best friends. this brought up a lot of emotions & he didn't understand why I didn't like them anymore. I told him about how basically, when I had BIG secrets, i told one person. ONE PERSON. She told her boyfriend & they told, idk EVERYBODY. Because of my stupidly optimistic outlook on people, I forgave them but stopped telling them secrets. around this point, Hope became friends with this OTHER girl (who she claimed she "hated") who hated me because my boyfriend at the time (who is now the stalker ex) didn't drink because I didn't drink (note, he COULD HAVE drank if he wanted to, I was NOT the one stopping him. he was just trying to impress me though, I later found out that him & his friends got drunk when I wasn't around all the time) but because he only didn't drink around me, she blamed me more being a "buzz kill" & ridiculed me to my face right in front of him. He usually just laughed and at times, joined in (asshole). but since they didn't have any NEW dirt on me, they began to make stuff up. They made up horrible rumors about how they saw me get super drunk at a party & have sex with a random stranger in plain view of everyone. Nat, Hope's bf, was also in on this. Now, I have never been to a party with them, I didn't drink & I've never had sex with a stranger but....... it was my word against three ppl so guess what ppl believe?
Anyway, around this same time, my now-ex confesses to drunk-cheating on me with this OTHER girl who hates me for the same reason of the fact that I "make" him not drink (again, I don't MAKE anyone do or not do anything. I've had bfs who drink & did not ever hassle them about it at all). He tells me this, & i (stupidly) say I forgive him because he was drunk & i understand that maybe he felt weird drinking around me & didn't know his limit. He then confesses that he actually gets drunk with them all the time & was telling me about the cheating because he wanted to see other people. "but we should get back together one day. you'd be perfect for me if I was like, 30." REALLY?
Needless to say, that died UNTIL I got another boyfriend & suddenly, my ex stopped hanging out with the party crowd (making them hate me MORE) & to stalk me (I had gone off to college in a different city at this point but he would drive almost 2 hrs to harass me). He broke up future relationships out of "his love for me" & wants to know why I won't take him back. & then he started trying to date MY friends from high school that he'd met THROUGH ME just so he could call & tell me about it until I cried. (If he dates my friends, I don't like it but I don't go out of my way to say anything. he CALLS ME.) & he even convinced one of my friends that I was the problem & she is no longer friends with me. : ( o yeah, & he'd bring her on dates to the restaurant that I was working at for the summer & they both called me a drama queen when I asked that they stop repeatedly coming in on the nights that I worked (2 nights a week mind you).
& now, apparently all of these people who hated me, and many more, are all friends. & now, my currently place of residence just ended and I am stuck in my stupid hometown with all of these people from my high school who hate me. Don't get me wrong, I have lots of friends here too but I feel uncomfortable with not one but TWO stalker exes (but that's another story) & tons of evil girls (& a guy) who literally did everything they could to make my life a living HELL my senior year of high school. & now, this league of evil keeps calling my phone & occasionally showing up at my work (not just the ex but also the group of girls who hated me & liked to make fun of me comes by just so they can be demanding & not leave a tip).
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